Jesy Nelson on leaving Little Mix: ‘I felt everybody hated me’
The singer left one of the most successful girl bands of all time after a decade of relentless trolling. Now, as she prepares to go solo, she reveals why she’s ready to return to the spotlight on her own terms
Jesy Nelson is having her photo taken. For the first time in her career, it’s all about her. She is no longer one quarter of the hugely successful girl group Little Mix. Nelson is about to release her first solo single and she says she is happier than she has been in years. But you wouldn’t know it: she looks painfully self-conscious, unsmiling and anxious.
Photos done, she disappears to change clothes. When she returns, she’s unrecognisable. Dressed in black T-shirt, leggings and platform trainers, Nelson is all smiles; warm, giggly and uninhibited. I tell her I’ve never seen such a contrast. She laughs. “When I’m in front of a camera, I don’t know what to do. The other three girls would be in the weirdest positions and look fabulous. If I did it, I’d look awful.”
Social media is like a drug. Every day, I’d type in ‘Jesy Nelson fat’ or ‘Jesy Nelson ugly’, and read what everyone said about me
When I was struggling, I didn’t feel there was anyone I could talk to. Nobody prepares you for what you’re about to go through
Lockdown was the happiest I’ve ever been. I was isolating with my best friend, and I’d not felt inner happiness like that for a long time
I was having these panic attacks out of nowhere. It got to the point where I thought, this is too much – I need to come out of this now
I know there are people who think I’ve let the other girls down, and that I’m so selfish, but it was really affecting me mentally
Part of me feels I should be single for ever because in relationships you have to sacrifice so much